condors caught in cosmic conflict.

i was wrapping things up

when i realized it cant be done.

especially when late night sex is so wet and tight

somethings just cant be wrapped. they are to big to fit in a nice package.

but thats how you know they are good for your soul, when the thought of separation pains you on the constant.

for now i have to spend time with the crazies.

they make my world go round, and im scared when they aren't near.

i just have to share my talents with them. check out what i made for their enjoyment.

i realize that at night is when the world begins again, everything before that is just yesterday, hold tight my love and don't cry, there are no need for tears, i've only been away since yesterday.

bonkers, on so many levels.

the first piss is out of the way.
ive been gallivanting these last few days.
sleeping very little, commemorating with friends.
im making so many mistakes.
but i am incredibly happy.
i cant wait for the rest of this to unfold.
its so daunting.
life changing.
love is unfolding all around.

but then what does that even mean?


dont worry, i got this.

im going back to cali

summer is sneaking up on me. im going to have to say goodbye to people i have grown rather attached to.

and say hello to people i have unsuccessfully tried to detach my self from.

i dont know how i could ever be expected to do such a thing, theres to much there to disintegrate.

being separated from my new family unit is going to be rough on my nerves, i can already tell.

we have seen a lot together, we got through an entire year.



right now i have to write a research paper. finish a necklace, finish my stone carving, make an interactive animation, finals, and keep my sanity in check, this might be out of my control at this point.

as of late

ive been missing my loved ones.

and in hoor of today being beer drinking day

i am grateful that these are my drinking mates

and that we all take part in the festivities together

sharing one mug, or blender.

i love them all quite dearly

although i am not really sure all of them know how much

Here is the deepest secret nobody knows. Here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide. And this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart... I carry your heart, I carry it in my heart.